book review:- Breaking Dawn - Stephenie Meyer

subject: Oye, finally!

Started: August 15, 2008 Finished: August 24, 2008

Finally I have finished Breaking Dawn, I have been wanting to finish this
ever since I bought William Faulkner's As I Lay Dying. Actually I should have
finished this earlier than August 24, but there's so many distructions that I can hardly read it. It's not in my priority anyway. :D

I thought that it wasn't so bad after all, though it bores me as hell.
To say, what did bore me was Bella's book [the last one]. It bores me because
it focused on Bella's change and how everything turns out to be perfect. Oh, to tell you I'm not a big fan of Bella. I dislike her as I dislike mosquitoes. Don't ask me what are my reasons why-hmm-on a second thought, I'll give you one reason though: She's a love idiot [among other things].

Okay so going back, I think what mades bore is when I realized that [like what told me] Meyer tried so hard to make everything perfect and that it will end up with a happily ever after. IT did though.

I guess it would have been good [though quite still hatable for others] if it ended with both of them dying. Or perhaps maybe as tragic as a Walk to Remember. Bella dies and it ends up with Edward's POV saying "...our love was like air you couldn't see it but you could feel it". I think I'll love it and it could have made me cry. ahihihi!

Oh this book made me love Jacob, I love him better than I loved Edward. One thing, he was funny and sooo spontaneous. This made me realize that Edward's perfection has a disadvantage too. Anyway Jacob imprinting on Nessie---Renessme is plausible /Meyer is a freaking good tactician/. Why? It gives out the reason why Jacob/Bella wasn't meant to be together; and that all through out the story,
Jacob was only meant to protect Bella for his future Renessme.

Like what I have said, Meyer was a good tactician. Since Meyer wants to have a happily ever after, she also made Edward and Jacob friends (and that goes the same way for Warewolves and Vampires), through Renessme. If it wasn't through Renessme being in danger and Jacob imprinting on her, Jacob wouldn't be-friending the Cullens and helping them out. Of course if Jacob will be there to protect Renessme, his pack will also be there to protect him. Thus this makes Jacob's pack an alliance to the Cullens.

I don't get the reason why others hated the book. I don't hate it but yes it bores me. It only made me excited when the Volturi came into the scene, but that didn't last long though because there was no action; just a bit of show off, but there was the thrill. ugh.

oh before I forget, hahahaha, I noticed something... Edward here wasn't really interesting. He's a like a supporting actor with a badly written character. hahaha! Too bad. He just amused me when I realized that yes, he has a marble hard peen and he had turned Bella into a sex machine. O-yea. Oh, one more thing, I thought it was gross when he performed a ceasarian delivery by biting Bella's bulge. eewwwww. Couldn't he get a scalpel or knife at least? Biting it wasn't really cool, it was morbid.

okay enough of the rant, this is getting long. And so if I'll give it a rating of 1-5. I'll give it a...2.5 I think that's fair.

Okay so now it's time to shift to Faulkner's As I Lay Dying.

Passivism

One rule, in order not to be disappointed, stop expecting.

This is my general rule. To tell you a little bit of myself, I'm the type of person who wanted to be perfect. Example, I don't want to have a mistake whenever we have a quiz. I wanted to get the higest possible grade, if that's possible. Also I want to make all of my grades to be "A" and by that, I really mean that it must be a straight A; not A- or anything, just A.

Actually this attitude drives me nuts because if I didn't make it to my standards, I'll just end up being disappointed and thus will result to my depression. It's a bit crazy because you know, I couldn't forgive myself for not reaching my standard.

This attitude of mine made things difficult for me because I keep on pressuring myself. One time I even contemplated suiciding just because of my standards.

Fortunately, now, with the help of God I was able to lose that attitude of mine. I wouldn't want to get into details, the bottom line is now even though I wouldn't get an A it doesn't pain me anymore. It just makes me feel blank and totally atease. I'm soo happy that even though I wouldn't reach that standard, it makes me feel happy.

Now despite how my life take different turns it does not hurt me anymore, it makes me even at peace with the world and mostly with my self...

this is just the beginning, my dear

August 08, 2008; 10:00 PM

I never felt this tired. I felt so tired that the only thing that I can do was to lie down on my bed and try my best to conjure a contemplative thought, if that was even possible. This week was hell as ever; and by "hell" I'm not just using it as a common expression, but by using what it really meant. I never thought that this time, academics would get the best of me... well almost the best of me.

I did all I can do to juggle everything. I tried to keep things on balance, however I realized that everything that I have been juggling was too much; and that sooner I would have to let other fall unto the ground. I did. One by one I did. I see things fall on the ground, everything that I have witness makes me cringe, for the ambition that I was trying to built so hard, had gradually started to fall.

I felt blank afterwards, after that hell of days. The moment I left, I stopped from thinking from anything, I stopped expecting, I stop complaining because all I wanted to do was to kiss the ground because finally the days of torture, the days of hell was over. I know that It was temporary but at least I was relieved for a moment.

Honestly, as this moment, I don't care anymore.

I don't care because all I really care about was this time, this night, I'll have 10 hours of sleep at least; and that's all I need.

Next time, I'll have my vengeance and I'll make sure that I'll juggle all of them.

Damn you Academics, damn you.

sacrificial lambs and saved ones.

Yes Houston, we've got a problem.


It's really me. It's really me who has a problem, you see, we've been loaded with school works; and because of this I've got a little time to study. This resulted in my failure in our Filipino exam, though I could hardly believe it that I fail this such a minor subject, but I did.

The moment I have looked at the paper, I knew that I would and will fail the exam. The fault there is I really didn't give my best. I took a little time to study that subject in which the result was a disappointment. It didn't depressed me somehow (which is a surprise) but yes it made me worry that it may have a big effect in my hope for Latin honor.

Whatevs.

Anyway, in positive perspective, it's too soon to say that I already have lost hope. God's good. I know he'll let me.

:)

sigh.

Too much!!!

Everyday week is a hellweek. Swear. Everyweek there's a project, everyweek there's a quiz, everyweek there's a homework. If my professors/teachers wants us to die soon, they're succeeding. I can't believe that there's no week that I haven't feel tired. I'm always on the go.

Can everybody stop for a while?

Anyway let's just leave that annoying thought and oh I just made this manip.



Aren't they cute?

Seriously I'll choose them over the chosen ones anytime. :]

Well I guess I'll stop here. buh bye everyone.

finally. FRIDAY!

!!!

Finally. FINALLY it's Friday!

And my mind had reached it's stage of temporary hibernation.

Oh how I love this. ♥

You make me sane.

It really rains

it really rains...

The moment that I took my notebook last nigth to review. I knew that I will surely fail. It was an inevitable event that whatever I do--it will occur. It was like as if it was written to happen. Or maybe it was my fault? And that mentioning that it was bound to happen was my justification to conceal my being irresponsible.

Anyway it already happened. I can just now look and learn from it. AGAIN.

sigh*